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Enough about me

Published by pam on Sat, 04/14/2012 - 9:46am

I probably shouldn't write while I'm hungry, but if I don't, I'm afraid I won't write much at all.  Hunger seems as big an issue as nausea - not a surprise as the two go hand in hand.  Not much has tasted pleasant, so it has been hard to find enough to eat.  I've been calling it the Egyptian diet.  The only time in my life (other than now) that I have counted UP in calories was when I was in Egypt.  I found I could get by on three hundred calories a day, but less than that and I I had a lot of trouble.  Egypt was a hard country if you wanted to eat cheap and not get horribly sick.

One down

Published by pam on Thu, 04/12/2012 - 9:02pm

I am feeling better for some reason.  It's 7:30 and suddenly, my body has decided to take a break from its malaise and feel better.  Maybe it's the accupuncture   Maybe it was the smiling face of my daughter coming in (repeatedly) to make sure I was alright, maybe it was the walk my husband offered to take with me in the waning hour of sunshine. What ever the cause, I feel a better and thought it might be worth taking the time to write about the events of the past day or so.  

Post chemo blahs

Published by pam on Thu, 04/12/2012 - 1:43pm

Tired.  Very tired.  Sleeping.  Trying to find things that taste good to eat.  Seeing the acupuncturist this afternoon, hoping she will have some magic needles to make me feel a bit like myself again.  Someone said the biggest side effect of chemo is boredom.  It can see her point.  The Doctor tells me I should be substantially better in thre days.  I am hoping he is right.  But I figure if I am too lazy to do anything, then my cancer cells are too.  Thanks for reading even when I have nothing to say.


Published by pam on Wed, 04/11/2012 - 7:32pm


This should be a thoughtful, meaningful post, I know.  It is the first chemo, there should be insights.   But I think this is going to be little more than an update.  I'm do more later if I feel up to it.  The chemo process went great.  We sat down at 9:30 and were done by 12:30.  But some of the drugs are taking thier toll.


The lessons of a bald head

Published by pam on Tue, 04/10/2012 - 11:02am

Today, I scheduled a date to have my head shaved. Most likely I will have the hair made into a wig.  I would like to look as much like myself as I can throughout this process.  It is amazing, the comfort that idea brings.  I could look like myself.


In the mirror, the reflection would be familiar.


To the UPS driver, things will appear unchanged.  



Published by pam on Mon, 04/09/2012 - 5:36pm


It's Monday.  Chemo starts Wednesday.  Wednesday feels like a line dividing my before life from my after life.  It is most certainly the line dividing sickness from health.  But its more than that.


Tumors and babies

Published by pam on Sun, 04/08/2012 - 3:52pm



I would like to talk about...

Published by pam on Sat, 04/07/2012 - 7:46pm



My new boobs.  For those who are easily offended by such things, be forewarned, the word boob or breast and perhaps even nipple may appear more than once in the following post.  If you are uncomfortable with such things, avert your eyes now.  You have been warned.


No worries, we're happy

Published by pam on Thu, 04/05/2012 - 3:19pm


Let the wild rumpus start

Published by pam on Wed, 04/04/2012 - 7:21pm


Today I meet with the oncologist.  It think we will be finalizing a chemo plan.  I say I think because I've gotten to the edge of this cliff before only to have been pulled back at the last minute.