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Pam's Top Ten Upsides of a Mastectomy

Published by pam on Thu, 03/29/2012 - 12:19pm



10.  Easiest five pounds I ever lost


9.  Suddenly l look fabulous in all those Eileen Fisher clothes


8.  No bras


7.  It's worth saying twice.  No bras.


6.  No unsightly back bulge.  (OK, that's sort of a part of the no bra thing, but you get my point)


5.  Running.  No bouncing, no special equipment necessary. I'm practically stealthy.


Pathology report

Published by pam on Wed, 03/28/2012 - 7:57pm

The kidney tumor was entirely contained with no node involvement.  It was cured by the surgery. This is good news and I am looking forward to a good night's sleep.
Hooray for me.

The monster

Published by pam on Wed, 03/28/2012 - 7:29pm


Some days are harder than others

Published by pam on Tue, 03/27/2012 - 10:15pm


I swore to myself I would write even when I didn't want to and today, I really don't want to.  I'm not really sure why.  Maybe it's because I didn't sleep all that well.  Maybe it's because I'm still waiting for the path report on my kidney.  Maybe it's just the accumulation of a month's worth of unbelievable life adjustments.  But today, I just want to sleep. 



Published by pam on Sun, 03/25/2012 - 4:04pm


I have loved dogs for as long as I can remember.  In the fourth grade, the serious pleading began.


Please, can we get a dog.


I'm an only child.   Both my parents worked.  We moved a lot.  I was a lonely kid.  I did crafts.  I had puzzle books and one-person games.  But seriously, how much solitaire a person play.


Please can we get a dog.


A reason to celebrate

Published by pam on Fri, 03/23/2012 - 7:04pm


So here's the choice, watch Desperate Housewives or write something for the blog.  It's a tough choice, I know.  

Going home

Published by pam on Thu, 03/22/2012 - 9:09am

Hope not to be back for a while.  I enjoy the nurses and the doctors, but the rest ( or lack there of) I can do without.  Looking forward to my own home and family and dogs.
Now I just have to recover for the big push.  Chemo will be long and challenging, but hopefully it wii help me turn the page on this chapter of my life.


Published by pam on Wed, 03/21/2012 - 7:39pm



The hospital is quiet.  This will be my second night after the surgery.  I am down to injectable Tylenol now which is a whole lot easier on my system than the dilaudid.  Not sure why people would ever seek out such drugs particularly for recreational use.  They make me feel weak, they make my vision blurry, and they kind of dull the pain, but not really .  Maybe. I don't take enough, but I can't imagine more would be better.  Having my wits about me means l know when it's time to go to the bathroom.  It means I can walk the halls.  It means I can write.


Update on Pam's surgery

Published by Marc on Tue, 03/20/2012 - 1:42pm

Up at 3:40 am to be at the hospital by 5:30 for this second surgery. Why are things so much scarier in the middle of the night?
Anyhow, the doctor just came down to tell us that the surgery went well. There were some problems getting to the kidney, due to the bleeding from the biopsy, but after they worked through that everything went just fine--very little bleeding, no nicking important things like the bowel, etc.

The results

Published by pam on Mon, 03/19/2012 - 10:33am



Its malignant.  But you knew that.  It never dawned on me that it could be malignant.  Dying from a kidney tumor isn't really the problem.  Most of them aren't deadly unless they are really advanced.  But to remove the tumor, you most likely have to remove the kidney.  


How can I go through chemo with one kidney?